The time has dragged and flown in equal measure.
Every day has been tough, every day I have learnt something new about myself, every day wonderful family and friends have supported me.
Thank you all.
I always wrote poems for Simon, well in those early heady days of a new romance, and occasionally later also, I never wrote rhyming poems, something Simon commented on, he being of the belief that poems should rhyme!
So, darling boy I wrote this one early this morning.
Requiem for Simon
I
lie this night upon the ground where you fell to endless sleep
I
cry for things that might have been, I can do nothing but weep
The
icy barb which speared my chest, chills my core still
I
wander aimlessly over land, wondering what would have been your will
I
hope your life well lived was long enough and regrets you had were none
That
peace and contentment are your robes and some sign will surely come
I
wonder every day about the joy we shared and whether joy will come again
With
you not there to laugh your hearty laugh and tease in your mischievous way
I
try so hard to honour you, by living the best I can
Truth
is, it is so bloody hard, it robs my breath and keeps me weak
I
talk to you still every day, an endless silent chatter
About
all the things dear to us and everything that ever mattered
I
listen for your answer everywhere and quiet myself to catch your thought
As
time passes more and more ,I know this is all for naught
Silence
now where music was, deafening it can be
I
practice now a gratitude hoping one day it will set me free
Of
this crushing pain that fills the place where you, my love, used to be
So
slumber on in sweet repose and occasionally smile down on me.
Evermore
Susan Pearl
25/05/2014
